Shades of Grief

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We all come here believing we are separated from our Source at birth and are left to defend ourselves from a sometimes hostile world. We learn that “it is just the way it is” and march forth, soldier on, as best we can.

We are often inculcated into the belief systems of our culture and family – many of them very helpful to becoming grounded in the earth plane. Yet at one point do the beliefs become like poisonous kool-aid?

Beliefs that separate you from your sense of being, the knowledge that “I exist” and am allowed to reach for my well-being, moment to moment. We each have an inner compass known as our feelings and intuitions. What gets in the way is when we are up against the polarizing game known as “black and white” or “good vs. bad”. How can you, after all, have one without the other? How can feelings and thoughts be anything but an exploration of polarity and duality? Yet we are told to “get with the program” in so many words, and that these important attributes are somehow wrong, inconvenient.

Every organism thrives in coherency, a type of homeostasis that is actually not “static” at all, but resting in the neutrality of the wave form that has both a crest and a trough. Remove either one and you have a straight line, or plateau, which doesn’t occur here in this vibratory reality where everything from the concept of time to elementary particles contain motion, i.e., move.

We know this. Even when our senses betray us, we can feel the nature of everything is to move and expand – to make way for something new, a new iteration.

Only a being of high awareness and integrity, the One, the Ineffable, pure awareness or Ground of Being could host such phenomenon as duality and multiplicity across time, playing so very many roles.

Where we run into problems and drink poison laced “kool-aid” is when we become fixed on the mountaintop or the valley. We become fixed on seeing ourselves as unable to handle our lives capably. We become fixed on playing a role, which is often hero or villain, Bad guy or good guy when the reality of our experience could be met fresh. We could be open to nuance and subtlety once in the possession of our selves.

I think that is meant with the expression “shades of grey”. It is an attempt to blend the idea of extremes of anything, to walk a middle way – to take a leap of faith into presence, leaving the conditioning of the ages to reorganize . . . to more presence.

Of course, this presence is what we are, devoid of conditions, as a precursor to embodiment and worded reality, just spend some time uncovering this truth by questioning everything – meditating on the no-thing, discovering the light of truth within.

We give it away, unknowingly, little by little in an effort to conform to our reality. It is part of “earth game” 2.0!!!

When you begin to win yourself back, you are declaring a major upgrade, you know!

Did you know that every negative event can be a catalyst for reclaiming your eternal and omnipresent (present everywhere) presence? I’ve even heard it called an acceleration. We are catching up to our true speed, and we have to pedal faster for a while to generate the new light quotient until we plateau again to enjoy the view!

So it is with grief. Every loss leads to new gain, simply because it is part of a wave form. Of course if you view a loss as an expansion, as the Angels do, you may be able to leap whereas before you trod. You may do both!

How would you like to experience your waveform experience? You may be invited to find new ways to move – fast, slow, inward, outward, wiggling, squiggling, up and down. Maybe you can enjoy the ride? Yes.

You are learning to dis identify with the topography of whatever life is showing up as. Then it feels, breath by breath, like the presence of you expanding and the unknown beckoning kindly.

We can also go kicking and screaming. We can also do both.

There is no right or wrong way to refuse the kool aid and to drink our divinity down to the depths of our toes.

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